Rain.

Long hard day. Been raining all day. Dead worried when she didn't replied. :( But now she did but it's still raining. :( Suspended again tomorrow. Will not see her AGAIN!! Shett! But she made my night... Made landi tonight. Hahahahaaha! Good night Cheska! Keep safe, everyone and you. :*

Sweet.

Last night was pretty awesomeeee! I got really cranky yesterday and it was really sweet of her to understand me.. :") I'm sorry if i slept w/o saying goodnight. :( :* But you did and pretty made my day! :") Thank you! Love you! <3 :*

Sorry..

Sorry Cheska! I was really not in the mood today. :( I don't know why.. I was supposed to cuddle you during Intglos but something's stopping me. :( Hahaha! Next time, I won't be snarly again. Sorry. Love you! :*

3 words, 8 letters.

Went to a party tonight and I really felt her love to me. Feel so blessed to have her in my life.. I've been waiting for her to utter those words and finally she said it. So happy. Don't know what to say. Hahaha! I love you too Cheska! :* >:D<

Photogs.

Our first picture together. Planned matching top for US Ambassador's visit. <3 

Date in Bob's with our friends. Matching top again. Sweet ey? <3

Tough.

Last night was pretty strange. Everything started when my friend Mint asked about Cheska and I's status.. I really don't know what to say. I don't want it coming from me 'cause Cheska might think that I'm assuming things that I shouldn't. I want it to come from her so I asked her.. She didn't know either so I started asking questions. I asked her about how she truly feels about me, "Happy but scared.. Scared of falling in love". I don't know why every time she says that to me I feel like shit, a liar, and insincere so we ended up fighting. We keep on fighting about my sincerity, her feelings, my feelings and I got fed up about it. We can't move forward unless she sort out her feelings. 

I lost my temper last night and was trying to get a grip of my feelings and reached my turning point and was about to give up and move on with my life... but things turned when she said "I know what I really want. I guess it's you". I believe her but a part of me doesn't.. What if she changes her mind again? What if something like this will happen? I really love her but everytime I do something, she feels more and more scared. I don't know what to do.

 I can't bear getting my hopes up.. but it's the risk I'm willing to take.

Thoughts of giving up...

It's been a quite some time. Strange, as I have had a lot on my mind. Somewhere between my choices for the past years and the decisions I've yet to make. A long time ago, I had given up on finding my emotions ... ever again. But you're here with me now and found you somehow and I've never been so sure. Can't believe how much I'm feeling, when you're lookin back at me. Finally, after 3 years of waiting for the right one... you brought me to life. Remember the day we first met? We first talked? I can still remember that day. Your beautiful smile, your soft-spoken words to me, your alluring face.. Who would have thought, after a month, things started turning and finally brought us together.

Maybe this time is the right time to love again... Just maybe